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Unsolicited
Sunday, October 27, 2013 at 6:55 AM
Chalz,
When there is nothing left to burn, you have to set yourself on fire. When I was mourning over a lost love, I held on strongly to these words. I was a wreck, utterly a mess, that I was completely inconsolable for days on end. I cried myself to sleep for so many nights. I couldn't manage to smile, or even fake it. With that being said, you're already in a better state than I ever was. Love at this age can be a fiery passion, an all consuming thing, specially when it's the first love you've ever offered yourself to. First true love, while not necessarily significant, sets your standard of such phenomenon. Of course, by the end of it, would be your first real heartache. Remember this, you are not alone. You never were. Although no one can ever know exactly what you feel, at least don't forget that you don't have to bear the pain on your own. I know it's hard, yes, it's going to be... But only for the first few months, not forever. Your routine will change. You feel empty because you have dedicated most of your time to one person who is no longer there. However, is this really that bad? It's okay. It's okay not to be okay right now. But you have to be okay eventually. We've only known each other for a while, maybe even shorter than that, yet I can already see that you are a strong person. I somehow, can actually see myself in you. And I know what this love that has left you must have meant to you... It's a love that has filled the void in your life. And now that it's gone, you feel empty again, with an even bigger void than before. You can fill it. Fill it with parts of yourself that you are yet to discover. Get to know yourself more. For when there is nothing left to burn, you have to set yourself on fire. Mourn the loss, then rise up again. And I assure you, one day, the right love will come when you are not looking. This love then will not be there to complete you, because you are already whole. It will compliment you instead. It wouldn't be there to fill the void, because there will be no void, if you don't depend on another for your happiness. It's going to be a mature, sustaining, enduring kind of love, the love that you deserve. For now, burn what's there left to be burned. Live through this, my dear, and you won't look back. Ate Kat |
“In most books, the I, or first person, is omitted; in this it will be retained; that, in respect to egotism, is the main difference. We commonly do not remember that it is, after all, always the first person that is speaking. I should not talk so much about myself if there were anybody else whom I knew as well. Unfortunately, I am confined to this theme by the narrowness of my experience. Moreover, I, on my side, require of every writer, first or last, a simple and sincere account of his own life, and not merely what he has heard of other men's lives; some such account as he would send to his kindred from a distant land; for if he has lived sincerely, it must have been in a distant land to me. Perhaps these pages are more particularly addressed to poor students. As for the rest of my readers, they will accept such portions as apply to them. I trust that none will stretch the seams in putting on the coat, for it may do good service to him whom it fits.”
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