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Streamline
Tuesday, August 27, 2013 at 7:03 AM
I tried diving in the pool today, but to no avail. I cannot do a proper dive and our swimming meet is tomorrow. I'm kind of letting myself plummet into the water but not achieving the right angle; if my head does come first, I fail to let the rest of my body follow suit, so I can glide smoothly.
I don't know why it's too difficult for me to dive, although by the looks of it, is actually a pretty simple stunt. It is also crucial to how the rest of my lap will go, and I don't want to impede my chance at winning and let down my team. The truth is, I'm scared of the water. I'm scared of the impact with the contact. I don't know why but I am intimidated by it. After numerous failed attempts, our team captain told me to, "Trust the water, for the water is your friend." But how come I couldn't bring myself to fall freely into it? I am too scared to fall. I find it so hard to trust. It has always been a source of internal conflict. Maybe I should learn to surrender myself sometimes, too. Specially if where I'm falling to is more than ready to catch me, just waiting when I am ready in turn. |
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